i can do it! i can finally drive my new car!!
i took it out on my own on saturday...almost immediately it finally clicked and i can now start from a stop, even on a minor uphill, without stalling or jerking. i haven't taken it out on any major roads yet because i'm a bit nervous about, say, turning left into traffic, but soon i'll be wizzing around like a pro!
i feel like i've accomplished a major life skill i was previously lacking. yay!